CFC Blog #114: Forgiveness

A couple of weeks ago, I shared with Brynne that the name of the manager at Enterprise Rent-A-Car in Tarrytown who treated me and Melissa so well, surprising to me as I expect to be treated terribly when renting a car, was a combination of two of my great teachers:   Jullien Thompson  (a combo of Jullien Gordon and Brynne Thompson).    Brynne humbly, and with her great quick wit, replied that the next person I meet might be named Rudy Kula! (a combo of Rudy Karsan and Irwin Kula!! So true!!)

I have learned so much from Rudy.  One of those lessons is about leaning into life in an open way from which so much more might be revealed… and the cost of the courage required to break through can be multiples of that seeming cost of courage.   I read today, “Cozy is the opposite of courageous.”        Rudy doesn’t seem to feel a need to be ‘cozy’.   I sense you will see this below.

- PIP 

Forgiveness

(from Rudy Karsan)

One of the exercises that I conduct when I am going to a funeral is asking myself the following question:

If there was one person that you would want forgiveness from before you died, who would that be?

Bear in mind that since I age and go to more funerals; this question now happens a couple of times a year as opposed to when I was younger. 

The answer is xxxxx.     (PIP ADD:  Rudy only asked that I withhold the person’s name in editing)

Please let me explain. I really miss talking with you and realize that the reason it hasn't happened is 100% my fault. 

You and Signature delivered one of the best returns of my life and yet I was angry at you. I never realized it until today and now I am ashamed. The reason is because you didn't invest in KEYPR (inspite of making a ton of money in Kenexa). I took it very personally since it was a reflection of your confidence in me. If you didn't trust me, then who could I rely on to trust me. I never came to terms with this until this morning when I asked myself that question. 

That's the headline.

Please let's chat again and I can give you more color and ask for forgiveness in person. 

Sincerely,

Nooruddin (Rudy) Karsan